I’ve been lost in my own thoughts for some time now. Not able to remove visions of the past from my head. There was so much good, yet it’s all been forgotten for something new, fresh, or otherwise not me.

I’m waiting to forget あなた, or for あなた to remember me. 

I’ve all the time in the world, but during these moments I think too hard. Everything I do, watch, take part in reminds me of あなた.

I sincerely think, in all my heart, that certain things were meant to be. Certain stars are in view.

I & U

My body has run out of electricity. I haven’t been able to sleep for days now. The minute I get to sleep I wake up, and then I can’t get back to sleep. I can’t think. When I get like that, somebody has to charge my batteries. Otherwise, I can’t go on living. It’s true.

- The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle

It’s been a rough weak, but I’ll trudge on.

Verdant eyes, love.

I’ve been trying to reach out to others for answers, but no one I know really has those. They’re confused as much as I am. Their own confusions without the need of my intrusions.  

• destruction, madly in <3

These thoughts, I write down for my own sanity. .1